*~Broken Promises~*

Sunday, September 11, 2005

[[A very depressing 11th of September...]]

I'M SOOOOO SORRY FOR THE LONG TIME SINCE LAST UPDATE! *anime cries...*

To say straigt...world's been absoloutly horrible against me!

The last few days, I have that feeling of every singel drop of energy, slowly slipping out of my body! And I think I know why...

I'm not getting the right food and I get too little sleep!

If anyone shouldn't have seen it, some of the only food I get, is what the serve on McDonalds and in the local Junk Food resturant! And I was the one there want to look sexy-slim when I go to boarding school next year! And to not speak about ototo! But I'm not the one to decide that! IT'S MOM! And it's also mom's fault of MY MISSING SLEEP!

She is fucking sitting on the damn computer on her fucked up love sites! And guess what?!

SHE IS NOT EVEN LOOKING FOR A BOYFREIND!
SHE IS JUST SITTING THERE AND GETS COMPLIMENTS FROM MALES!

Not that I even WANT a man in here, it's the last thing I EVER needs by now! She is more ego than me!

But thats's not my pointe!

MY POINTS IS...that when she sits on the computer IN MY ROOM, AND SMOKES, I HAVE TO WAIT TO GO TO SLEEP!
AND SHE CAN SIT THERE UNTIL FUCKING 11.30 PM!
AND IN THE WEEKENDS, IT'S A NIGHTMARE!

And..HELLO! I also wants to go online and speak with my buddys! And then she just says that I can wait to the week starts again when she is on work!

HELLO LADY!!! WAKE UP TO REALLITY!!!

I GOT MORE HOME WORK THAN EVER, I GOT FUCKED UP HOUSEWORK TO DO AND A PRIVATE-LIFE WITH MY FREINDS IN SCHOOL!

And there's not too long time before I also starts on Guitar playing and other things after school time...

How did she just think I'll manage to do all in time?

Oh and by the way...I'm bleeding more than ever and I look like the Death herself, in own ugly person...

*sobs...*

I'm depressed...I can't draw at the moment...Mom's seriously sick in her head...Daniel is driving me mad...The computer starts to freak out again...

*teardrops...*

I really can't wait to get out of this hell hole!
I dunnoe if I have told it before, but next year I'm going on a boarding school. The social pepole I have been in touch with, says that I really will feel good if all the responsibility is lifted away from me...
In that time, I really didn't beleive them...but now...it suddenly appears that they where more than right about me! I thought I never will be argueing with mom and always obey to her...
But I doesn't...

I'm sticking together with Daniel always! From 2pm to 7.30 am the next day and so on! And when mom comes home, ragnarok is out!

Mom is too safe by me...she KNOWS I don't have any other places to go.

I can't go to dad...I know I'll regret it sooner or later! But just to make mom pissed off...I'M SO close just to do it...

And now...Mom and I have argued again...she is still pissed off and have went to sleep...
And great! Tomorrow...2 freaking lessons with Torben again! I really hopes I'm in a FAR better mood!

I'll go to sleep now...if I can! I have got paranoia! I see spinders everywhere!!!!!

Ja Ne...
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Ps: Pray silent for the ones who lost there freinds and family at World Trade Center, four years ago...<-*-_-*-_-*-_-*->

Thought of you at... |9/11/2005 09:13:00 PM|

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